Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Infertility

Hey Y'all how are you today?
It's a rainy grey day here. which I am thankful for because the pollen is killing me!
I have seasonal allergies and this year nothing is working, so rain is a good thing.
So a few things are prompting this post.
1. My struggle with infertility
2.An article I read on one of our local news stations web sites.
3.Questions I get asked
4.My surgeries and another on the horizon.
5.Adoption heartbreak
So this wont be forever long I will break it up in more than one post.
Goodness where do I even start?
An article I just read says 12 in every 100 women struggle with infertility and yet no one talks about it.
Why?
A lot of women are ashamed, religious views, public perception the feeling of inadequacy etc...the list goes on. That's part of what prompted me to share.
The heartbreak and heartache of not being a mom have existed my entire adult life. It was my greatest desire. It is not meant to be.
Let me start with the most recent the surgeries and the next one on the way.
So I have NEVER in all my life since puberty been on a regular cycle, oh I would go through spurts of regularity for a few months but it never lasted.
It did not worry me at all until after I got married and we were not getting pregnant so I saw my regular doctor who sent me to a specialist in difficult and hi-risk pregnancies, he was great to me. I was diagnosed me with Endometrial Hyperplasia and Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome and enlarged Ovaries. Surgery followed then rounds of weight loss drugs fertility drugs, hormone therapy, testing and nothing, surgery again.....
Fast forward 12 years still barren and still not regular, my cycle went crazy again and I just cannot take it anymore. So a new DR. who is also  great she got my results and though I am no longer trying to get pregnant I need to have normalcy in my life, my cycle this time started on July 2,2014 and still has not stopped. The struggle is real folks! So hyperplasia is back so surgery again that was the one on March 19 (Lees birthday) they get in there and find massive fibroid and a massive amount of polyps for whatever reason (I have heard different excuses)  they were not able to be removed that day so a second surgery 6 days later was scheduled. March 25.
This week I went back for my results.
Complex Endometrial Atypia with underlying Carcinoma.
What that means is there is a cancer but not tumors and that also means to get rid of it I have to have a total hysterectomy.
I meet with a gyn oncologist on the 22nd to get more information and schedule the next surgery.
That is where I will end it today.
Please ask any questions you have.
X's & O's



Sunday, April 5, 2015

He Is Risen!

Celebrating the resurrection of Christ Jesus!
He is Risen!
Happy Easter my friends.
Image from Google search

Friday, March 27, 2015

Surgery part 2

Hey y'all.
How are things with you?
My second surgery is done.
It went well. The anesthesia was worse this time, I was sick for a couple hours after and had trouble getting my breath as I was coming out of it. Home resting now. I slept 12 hours straight when I got home I got up for about 2 hours and went back to bed for another 10 hours! I think the worst is over.
Now I just have to wait for the pathology to come back...
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.


Friday, March 20, 2015

Surgery...

Hey y'all
How are you today?
Rainy and grey here today.
I had surgery yesterday so I am taking it slower and easier than usual today.
There is a ton I need to do, but not today.
I don't handle anesthesia well, so between the drugs for the anesthesia, pain and nausea. I was knocked for a loop.
I have another surgery next week!
Wish me luck.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

It's my BIRTHDAY!

It is snowing on my birthday ;)
It almost always snows on February 24 
Sometimes only a flurry
Sometimes a blizzard
Sometimes a dusting
This year an inch...so far
It will not last long, we do not stay cold here
our winters are mild as are the temps.
I love it when it snows...on my birthday.
Happy 42nd Birthday to me.

Wednesday, February 11, 2015

sweet Hearts

Hey Y'all are you ready for your Valentine?
I am working so as usual we will not do anything, Lee bless his heart is just awful at Valentines, my Birthday which is 10 days after Valentines and our Anniversary, Christmas he is usually OK at(...because he gets a list ha ha) he just doesn't get it. Those events largely go unnoticed by him, not that I want tons of gifts or anything, just make an effort, make it special...oh well almost 19 years married, lol I do not anticipate a change!

All that being said there are a few very sweet bloggers that do get me and I love to swap with them!
Chris at A Little Creation is one of the ladies that really knows what I love!
We did the Valentine swap at Viv's (love her too!) Thanks for hosting Viv!
Here is what Chris made and sent to me :)
GIFTS GALORE!!!

SUCH A SWEET SNOWY SCENE!

BE STILL MY HEART! 
A SNOWMAN ON A HEART HOLDING A HEART
HOMEMADE HOT CHOCOLATE  CANDLES 
AND HEART FILLED SCRAPPING PAPERS
SEE SHE GETS ME!

A PRECIOUS SNOWFLAKE GARLAND

VINTAGE SEALS AND FELT HEARTS!

SEVERAL VINTAGE VALENTINES
 AND I LOVE THE FLOWER PIN!!
LOTS OF BITS TO CRAFT WITH
Spoiled rotten by Chris!
Thank you so much for your thoughtfulness
You made my day!

Another who I adore is Debby
we did a Christmas swap and decided to swap
for Valentines 1 on 1.
Just look at her creativity
I LOVE it Debby!
The necklace is great i have worn it all this week.

Thank you so much.

My heart is full from such sweet,
thoughtful and amazing gifts from two sweet friends.


Monday, January 26, 2015

Time for tea

Hey y'all
How are things with you today?
Ok here.
So yesterday the ladies in the family got together and had a ladies tea.
We like to treat ourselves on occasion and after spending a lot at a few different tea rooms over the years we decided to do our own and we are great at it lol.
Of course I don't have a single photo of it! Sheesh we were enjoying ourselves too much.
I did spend some aunt Jenny time with all 4 of my little loves and these two wanted to take selfies so here I am with Shelby and Layden.